Monday, October 06, 2008

Missing Charlie

It's been a little over two months now since I lost my beloved Charlie. Today, I looked at a picture of him and teared up again.


I haven't bonded much with cute little Jasper - I think he is more my daughter's dog than anything, and I think it has helped her to heal after Charlie's death. But I have subconsciously (or consciously, perhaps) kept my heart locked up when it comes to this puppy.

Charlie was so special. I'm tearing up even while I'm writing this. But y'know, he is beside my bed every night. I know that sounds bizarre and maybe even a little funny, but I sense his presence right beside my bed. That's where he slept all the time, not far from my side. I feel like I can just put my hand out and I'll be able to stroke that soft fur again.

Maybe I shouldn't get so emotional over a dog. But he was more than a dog. He was my best friend. I can't count how many times I'd hold him and sob my heart out over something, or just hug him close to me because of how much he loved me.

I'm still missing him. I think I will always miss him. But he holds a part of my heart that will forever be his.

10 comments:

  1. When we lose someone, or a pet, that we loved deeply, even the loss becomes a part of us. Sounds like Charlie had a great home there.

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  2. I feel your loss. It's hard. Just recently lost my 16-y.o. Boston Terrier. I picture her young and spry and running with the wind again.

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  3. Big hugs, Melissa. I know how hard it is. For several months after we got Chloe and Cleo, I did hold back as well. Eventually, though, things changed. You just need time. Mourning a pet is no different from mourning a person - recovery is a long process. I'm glad Jasper has helped your daughter.

    More hugs.

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  4. I've lost two dogs and grieved for a long time for them. There is a dog that roams out neighborhood that looks just like yours. She visits me and that helps:)
    Enjoy your vacation!

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  5. I've lost two dogs and grieved for a long time for them. There is a dog that roams out neighborhood that looks just like yours. She visits me and that helps:)
    Enjoy your vacation!

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  6. I had a lump in my throat as I read your post. I don't think it's strange at all that you feel so deeply for such a wonderful pet.

    When the vet told me that my dog 'wouldn't make old bones', I didn't react at the surgery but a week or so later came down with shingles (I've had this a few times) and I'm sure it was because I was so upset about what he'd told me.

    I love the photo of Charlie, he looks very knowing and I can imagine he truly was your best friend. x

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  7. Hugs to you. Of course you should get emotional over him -- he was a part of your heart. Of course you'll always love him and miss him. Other animals will enter your life, but no animal ever replaces another. Each is unique.

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  8. Its been over a year and I still feel the same way about Coop. I'm glad I put off getting a new puppy for now. As much as I miss having a dog, I needed time to heal. I will always miss Cooper and I feel her around me all the time, but I think I'm slowly reaching a place where I can welcome a new little puppy into my home and heart without expecting her to live up to Coop.

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