Friday, June 27, 2008

Topsy Turvy

It's been a week of up and downs. More than ever before, I am realizing that creative people have very different personalities, and our emotions can imitate the best kinds of roller coasters.

That was me this week.

Stick a creative person at a desk, 8-5, staring at a computer, every day of the week, and eventually, you're going to have a basket case on your hands. The mind starts to wander, to daydream, to think, "If I could only stay home and write all day...", to believe that there must be more to life than cube-dwelling.

And then the next week, the creative person might have overcome that little hurdle, be happy with their job, think they could do it another few years, and all is well with the world. (This is usually around a payday).

Back and forth, up and down. And if the creative person isn't creating, well, watch out. That's just a time bomb waiting to explode. And I've been doing more research than writing this week. Hmm...that could perhaps figure in to why I'm not very happy and satisfied with life.

There's just too darn much going on in creative people's brains sometimes, and it becomes a bit overwhelming. Depression sets in. The urge to shut out the world and sleep or just sit like a lump on the couch and watch bad B movies all day taunts us. Sometimes we give in. Sometimes we must fight to grasp onto that shred of motivation. Sometimes we win. Other times we lose.

In some ways, I envy those people who have worked at the same job for 20+ years - and are absolutely content with doing so. That's what they want. Wish I could say the same. Sometimes. Like today.

This is a bit of rambling post, but that's ok. Rambling is sometimes good for the mind to release all that gunk that's built up.

Thank goodness it's Friday.

4 comments:

  1. And you only have 10 minutes left in your day!
    Next week will be better. Believe it!

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  2. Wow- I thought I was just anti-social, but you're right! And I've always been jealous of people who could just go to work, go home, watch tv, and sleep, and still be happy. I so don't get that, but I often wish I did.

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  3. That's why you need to write EVERY DAY. When you're researching, write a page or two of a short story. You need the short stories to keep your name out there in between books, and it keeps you from going crazy during the research-only times for the big projects.

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  4. I'm so glad it's not just me! I go through the same thing all the time. Very frustrating. There are times I get so excited, and others where, like you say, sitting and watching DVDs sounds like the best thing ever.

    I like your rambling :)

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