I swore the other day to leave the political blogs and other negative "hot button" issues out of my life for the time being. But an innocent search got me all fired up again on a certain issue. Naturally, I had to respond (because I can't stand injustice) and that pretty much shot the whole "calmness" of the morning.
Now that it's afternoon, I'm feeling normal again and wondering, for the thousandth time, if I have adult ADD. My brain tends to flit around on a dozen things at any given moment. Actually focusing for more than 15-20 minutes on something is nearly impossible for me. This is especially bothersome at night when I'm trying to go to sleep and have ten thousand thoughts running through my brain.
I am thinking I need to learn how to meditate and how to focus. I'd like an entire week of focusing on my writing. Yet something always drags me away from it and I have little resistance to the siren call.
Finding actual quiet time, meditating on something, whether it be on something I read in my Bible or on something that I wrote, is hard for me. I wish it wasn't.
Am I merely a product of this current social climate of "so many things to look at, so little time to look at them"? With Twitter (which I have staved off joining so far), Facebook, blogging, and a gazillion websites calling my name, the Internet is a big time waster for me. But it's not just the 'Net that distracts me. I'll get caught up in various activities offline that take away my focus. Though I have managed to eliminate t.v. (except for the past few weeks!), I still have a hard time just sitting and "being."
Have any of you tried meditation? Does it work for you? I just want my darn brain to be still for awhile!