Saturday, March 04, 2017

The Betrayed

My last novel's title was The Betrayed. Betrayal was the theme and I explored it in various ways. It was challenging to write, but I really enjoyed it.

But when you're betrayed in real life, it makes fiction pale by comparison.

I'm not going to get into specifics, but I found out my husband was having an affair and thus, that was the reason he wanted to get divorced.

Everything I thought I knew about him has been turned upside down. The pain is such that it feels like a knife has been plunged into my heart and it keeps twisting, deeper and deeper.

I will be okay. This I know. But my hopes for an amicable divorce, for a continued friendship with my ex, have been cruelly dashed. I have not only lost my husband, but my best friend.

I believe we go through challenges like this for a reason. I'm not sure what the reason is for this latest development, but I know, in the future, I will understand.

My friends and family, even my primary physician, have rallied to my side. I am supported. I am loved. And this makes all the difference.

I've worked through this pain by writing. I've filled my journal with pages and pages of scrawled thoughts and feelings. It has helped. And my writing will continue to help.

I may not feel it all the time, but I am growing stronger in so many ways: in my faith, in my relationship with my daughter, in my relationships with my family and friends.

I will not let this break me.



2 comments:

  1. Oh no. I wish I lived closer, so I could come visit. Even if it's just for us to sit near each other in silence and write novel on our respective laptops for a couple hours. You will be okay, because you are one of the strongest people I know, and you have lots of us here who want to help, not necessarily in what ways we can, but hopefully in what ways you need on any given day. But that doesn't mean this latest blow doesn't just suck so hard. *hugs*

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    1. I would LOVE to just sit and write with you! How awesome would that be? Thanks for your kind words. It has been incredibly difficult, but each day gets a little better. I'm trying to stay busy as that helps. :)

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