Thursday, July 16, 2015

Restless

Do you ever feel restless? I don't mean sitting around the house, bored, and wanting to do something but not knowing what. No, I mean restless with life. As in, let's change it up. Let's do something totally life-altering.

Move to a different town, a different state, a different country. Meet new people and experience new places. Do a job you've always wanted to do. Toss a ton of the stuff you've been carting around with you for years. Explore. Go out on a limb. Start over at the age of 40.

I'm feeling that way right now.

Except it's not that easy to just pick up and move to a new place and find a new job and all of the rest. There's responsibilities and family and reality to consider, not to mention the financial side of it all.

That's why I'm glad I'm headed to England in the fall. That will be my chance to get away for awhile, to experience and explore a country I love, and to assuage the restlessness in my soul.

Sometimes I wonder...if I won the lottery tomorrow, would I stay in the same town? Would I up and move to a foreign country or a different state, somewhere I always wanted to go? Or would I play it safe, stay here in Nebraska, where it's familiar?

I'd like to think I'd do something adventurous.

But the chances of me winning the lottery are virtually nonexistent (and I guess you actually have to buy a ticket to win, right?). And up and moving to a new state and getting a new job and all of the rest of it probably won't happen because my health stinks and I need good medical care, and my husband is quite content to stay put, and my daughter needs to finish school.

Which is why I write and why I read and why I watch miniseries like Poldark and Downton Abbey and Foyle's War.

Then again, we tend to think the grass is greener on the other side of the fence. I remember the last time I went to England (in 2008). I was seriously considering moving there. At the time, my husband and I were separated (we since worked things out) and I thought it would be a fresh start for me. But once I got to England and traveled around, I realized how much I love living in America. My daughter is convinced she's going to live in the UK when she grows up, and honestly, I'd be fine with that - gives me an excuse to visit England as much as I want!

This house was near Chatsworth in Derbyshire. I love the blue door. 
But I'm happy with my life here. The restlessness gets to me once in awhile, and I must scratch the itch.

If I'm honest, though, I'd really liked to try living in another part of America. I've lived in Nebraska my entire life. So has all of my immediate family. What would it be like to live somewhere completely different? I think it would be an adventure. So I'm leaving that option open, though whether hubby will agree with me or not is another matter!

For now, though, I'll write my stories, take vacations when I can,
and count my blessings that I can do both.


8 comments:

  1. Hi! Thanks for dropping by my writing site. If you want to know how I handled restless urge to shake it up go over to my blog sojournerinlabrador.blogspot.ca . At the age of 61, my fella and I moved to Labrador. It is hard but good too. We are both airforce brats so used to that.

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    1. Hi Jan, I love all the photos on your blog. What a gorgeous place you live in!

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  2. As a matter of fact, I am experiencing this situation right at this moment. UI have an extreme urge to do something adventurous, and especially travel around the world. Perhaps even a la Christopher McCandless (sans the dying part) ...

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    1. I'm really hoping that my health will cooperate and that I'll be able to do more traveling!

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  3. England! That will be an adventure!
    I've moved over a dozen times in my life, and I was happy to finally have a house to settle into and learn to do things like paint walls and really decorate rooms! But I can understand the restlessness. Sometimes I get the desire to just randomly embark on an unplanned roadtrip across the country instead of coming home from the grocery store. :)

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    1. Oh, I hear you on the moving...I HATE moving. Sometimes I think it would be awesome to just have one suitcase of stuff and just go and explore. But what about all my books? :D

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  4. I understand the restlessness! I'm full of it at the moment. I hope the trip to England will 'scratch the itch' for you.
    Moving to another part of the States would be an adventure too. With it being so huge, some parts would be like another country, I guess.

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    1. Yes - our country is so big that moving to a different state would be a totally different experience culturally and in so many other ways!

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