Saturday, July 26, 2014

It Has Begun

Ever since I had my daughter 14 years ago, I've had female issues. One ovary was removed in 2011. I had a hysterectomy in 2012 (but left an ovary so I didn't go into menopause). Well, I just had surgery last week to take out the ovary as I had a cyst growing inside of it (I didn't even know that was possible!) and it's been causing all sorts of havoc.

I've lived with going to the gynecologist's office several times a year for the past 14 years. I've used tons of sick leave. I've spent far too much time in bed nursing the next problem to come around the bend. Thus, when this latest issue came up, I decided enough was enough.

Only problem? Once the ovary was removed, BAM: instant menopause.

Well, it's been four days since the surgery and I haven't had any hot flashes yet. In fact, if I'm having any menopause symptoms at all, it's my mood's insistence on being just fine one minute and down in the dumps the next. I'm already on a low dose of estrogen and I'm hoping that having the same dose every day instead of the erratic ups and downs I've experienced for years will actually be a good thing. Time will tell.

I've been sleeping a lot (and having the most bizarre, disturbing dreams ever) and trying to read when I feel like it. I take pain pills to help manage my pain and while they make me feel really good for awhile, I tend to 'crash' about two hours after I take them and feel apathetic and not in the mood to do much of anything.

Recovery is never an easy process, of course, as I've found out countless other times. I'm hopeful to return to work on Monday, but we'll see how it goes.

And the writing? I'm still at it. Funny that snatches of my main character's life are trickling through my brain now after I've already written the second draft, but they have really filled in all the missing sections of his makeup quite nicely. I understand him better now.

Blogging? Well, I don't do it very much anymore and that makes me rather sad. I'll stop by every once in awhile and post, but regular schedules are pretty much out. Though it might be worth toying with the idea of sticking to a schedule just for discipline's sake and for the sake of writing on deadline. Deadlines have a way of getting me to work, even if they are self-imposed.

In other news, I was late to the party once again and just recently became a Doctor Who fan. I remember watching the old ones when I was a kid - I believe Tom Baker was the Doctor at the time (he was the Fourth Doctor), but I do have to say that David Tennant is "my" doctor. I haven't watched any episodes with Matt Smith yet, and the brand new ones with Peter Capaldi as a much older doctor should be quite interesting.

And that's about it from this end of the universe.


  1. I hope you continue to feel stronger each day. Sending you best wishes for a speedy recovery.

    1. Thanks so much, Suzanne! One day at a time. :)

  2. I feel like you about blogging--it is time consuming but every now and then I like to read a few to catch up,. I sure hope your problems end with this latest surgery. That low does of estrogen should help a lot. I still get hot flashes after nine years but not so bad and they only last about a minute. Hang in there!

    1. No hot flashes yet, Terri - thank goodness. But mood swings haven't been fun. The crying for no reason last night was pretty tough. My daughter hung out with me the entire time, though, so that helped a ton. :)

  3. Just happened on this, your latest blog post Melissa, whilst revisiting my own neglected blog and scanning my blog reading list. Hard to be thrown cold turkey into menopause but good to take action on an ailment that has tormented you for so long. Hope you get back to your writing soon. I always love reading your stuff when I stop by. Oh, and I was just struck by your byline up above: "Because yesterday impacts tomorrow." Being married to a professional futurist, with whom I collaborate, but having worked in memoir with a client for a year and a half, I am always struck by the relationship between the past and the future. One thing I am convinced of, thinking about the past is essential for moving into the future in the most positive way possible. Best wishes.

    1. Jeanne, thanks so much for stopping by my blog again. I really would like to resurrect it and start posting more regularly. But then I get sidetracked. It's a shame as I used to really enjoy doing it.

      I am still struggling to recover from surgery - it's taking longer than I expected and I don't know why, but I guess I just have to give it to God and let Him deal with it. :) I have a doctor's appointment on Monday, so in the meantime, I'm going to focus on my writing and my family and try to take good care of myself. :)


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