Friday, October 04, 2013

Rambling

I feel the need to write, to get down some words, no matter how badly, and just feel my fingers move on the keyboard. The recovery process has been agonizingly slow and frustrating. One day I feel decent - the next, not so much. Or I'll feel good for a few hours and then the next three are bad. I suppose it's the nature of recovering from mono, but it does get tiresome.

The worst is not having the motivation to do much of anything - watch movies, read books, write, or even journal. I surf the Internet only because a person needs to do something to keep from going crazy, but I'm even bored with the Internet now.

My cats, thank goodness, accept me and my moods and generally have made this whole process a lot more bearable. There's something about a pet who accepts you unconditionally (well, as long as you feed them!) that makes everything easier.

My eating habits are atrocious, but I've been eating what sounds good and not what is necessarily good for me, leading me to fear that I'm going to gain weight since I've been off my regular eating plan. But the scale keeps going down and this must mean that instead of converting calories to fat, I'm still using all my energy to fight off the mono virus. Despite the weight loss, I still don't think that's a good thing.

We had a terrific rainstorm last night as well as a tornado south of us. Today, it snowed in the western part of Nebraska, but here, in the eastern portion, we had another tornado. It's very odd weather, but not so odd when you consider that Nebraska has always been like that when it comes to weather. But the colder temps are moving in the joints in my body are definitely feeling it.

If this post sounds like it's all a bunch of rambling, well, that's because it is. I've been dealing with this illness for two weeks now, and I still do not feel like I'm anywhere near being over it. I need to get back to work. I need to get back to my life. Yet if I push myself, I will only prolong the recovery process.

Patience. Patience. Patience.





6 comments:

  1. The lovely part about blogging, is all the nice people you meet who stop by your blog and get to read their blogs - so I stopped by yours and discovered you haven't been well. I had to look up 'Mono' as we don't know what that is in the UK but it appears to be similar to glandular fever - which ain't nice! Hope you get better soon and back to writing. Love Anita

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    1. Thanks so much for stopping by, Anita, and for the get well wishes. And you're absolutely right - that is the wonderful part about blogging, getting to meet other people. I'm so glad I started a blog way back in 2005 - it's been an absolute joy.

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  2. It seems as if Nebraska's weather is symbolic of your fight against Mono - ever changing and unpredictable! Here in Minnesota, we missed most of the severe weather as it hit to the west and south of us. The cold has set in though but I don't mind it too much as it reminds me of all things Fall. Hope you have a speedy recovery but don't push it too hard!

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    1. Thanks, Jess - yeah, the weather has been crazy here. We actually had to turn the heater on, but I think the temps might hit the low 80s again this week.
      I'm going to attempt to go back to work tomorrow, but we'll see how it goes... :)

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  3. Hope you can see a light at the end of the tunnel soon. Hang in there.

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    1. It's weird stuff. I feel decent one day, then the next I feel like I've been hit by a truck. Weird stuff. But I'm definitely better than I was 2 weeks ago!

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